Thursday, July 24, 2008
back to blog...
Ok, i noe my blog suck nwadays cos i dun update tt MuCh...
im sry but im jus too bz preparing for exams and too tired to update...
not only that, ui still have to settle wif my personal life which currently suck...
im jus so stress everytime nw... i cud jus nt tok in a day...
most of the mornings, i wake up at the wrong side of the bed...
prelims is jus in a month!!! it's so fast!...
well, i jus hope that i've summarised everything...
and jus hope that all the things i'm facing wud end...
gtg nw...
FiR...
p.s. : SOME PEOPLE ARE TOTAL CHILDISH!!!
Woken up at
4:41 PM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Hello... im back...
sry for nt updating for long long long time...
but u noe wat??? im to pissed to write abt wat happen...
to pissed to let it out...
im jus gonna show this test i did...
Your view on yourself: You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with? Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success. How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Woken up at
1:48 PM
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Well im back...
Ouh thx alot ah... betrayer...
fine... it's ok lah... i wun die without u...
One thing i can say abt u, which is childish...
Went to band wif my stupid fucking face...
sry guys if were harsh or dun bother toking...
jus wasn't in the mood...
during band, as usual, the same old section is nt playing well...
wat can i say? pls le... wat hav u guys been doin???
hw many times u wan me to say tis...???
NBC is SATURDAY!!! aarrgghh.. im pissed...
I cn hear the results coming...
"and last but not least, Ahmad Ibrahim Concert Band, Bronze..."
or shall i say COP??? come on ppl...
u all jus make me wan to not come...
Jiayous okay???
buttom line is tat however anyone teach u or watever,
it cant change anything... it's u who take it and apply...
if u r lazy and dun bother, WAIT LONG2...
plsplspls...
FiR...
p.s : Im like the ony tubist... thx again man...
Woken up at
7:15 PM
I thought after u kol, i wud b better...
i understand that u hav ur own things to settle
and so i waited till u r done... the nxt thing, i realize
is tat im gonna cry myself to slp... im so sry to bother u...
Thx for trying fren... but im crying myself to slp nw..
and sure to flood as i hav loads to say...
but i guess i'll share them all to my 4 enclosed walls...
good nite...
p.s :Tears flowing like a shower tap...
i seriously nid a person's shoulder to cry on...
Woken up at
12:35 AM
Monday, July 7, 2008
I’m surrounded by souls.
However, I’m nothing but alone.
I sleep with two other creatures of my kind, in the very same room.
Nevertheless, I’m the only one left when my eyes shut.
I talk to many ears throughout the day.
Although none of them really hear me.
I sit close to many warm bodies.
But I am still frozen inside.
I feel their touch graze my skin.
Even so, still numb I'll always be.
I see them stare at me, judging character by appearance.
None the less, they are still blind and without guidance.
I feel for those that chose horrible paths,
Their disabled souls force my care to go untouched.
My tears of despair fall on closed, parched mouths.
While my breath of courage blows against hardened hearts.
I’m completely accompanied but utterly alone.
No one can reach to me now, but the kiss of the dark grows.
Seclusion in delusion, minus a life,
Saves a small soul from heart shattering strife....
To my Best Fren
Although I have only known you for five years
It feels like a lifetime I will be here to wipe away your tears
And to fight away all of your fears
You know I will help you when things get tough
I will help you when things get hard and rough
I’ve told you my deepest secrets And you have told me yours
You’re my friend in life you’re my friend in death
We have a bond so strong proven with every breath
I must say the things I cherish the most
Is the time we get to spend together
You’re my best friend and that’s the way it will always be
Your always there for me beginning to end
That’s how I describe you the perfect friend
You have been there for me through thick and thin
And I know you will be till the end
I know you will be here for me because true friends are for eternity
You turned my darkness into light
You made everything all right
When I needed you the most you were there
Even if you didn’t really care
Friendship is a strange thing
We find ourselves telling each other
the deepest of our secrets and details of our lives
things that we don’t even share with the families that raised us
Of all the friends I have ever met
You’re the one I will never forget
If I die before you do Ill go to heaven and wait for you
If you never show ill know u went the other way
Ill give the angels their wings back
And risk the loss of everything just to prove
Our friendship is true ill even go to hell for you
We are two friends, friends forever,
two friends always together
No matter what ill be here till the end
I want you to remember me as your best friend……
p.s: haish... i jus nid sum1 here by my side rite nw...
i guess i cnt question fate...
FiR...
Woken up at
6:46 PM
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Hello...
It's been a week since i updated...
very long rite...? i think my longest period nt updating for tis year...
well was away carrying huge problems on my back everyday...
everyday is a challenge for me... no matter in which type of prom...
thr's so many for me to thenk of... im depress but i dunnoe y...
my feeling jus mix and mix by itself... im jus confuse in this world...
sumtimes, i jus feel like giving up... some i jus wish smth happen to me
or i jus go crazy and end up in IMH... haish... sum1 help me...
for whom been thr for me, i thank u so much...
FiR...
p.s : i cnt believe u cn be tat stupid...
Woken up at
8:23 PM
