Wednesday, October 22, 2008
UP TO YOU...
I GIVE UP!!!!!
Woken up at
4:38 PM
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Thank You for the wish guys...
I'll do my BEST!!!
thanks to,
Jingyi, Haikal, Dickson,
Xiao Qi, Junyang, Shahirah,
ShaiK, Hazzry, Aiman, Diyana
Gabriel, Kak Nis, Kak Nisa,
Faisal, Busu, Pak busu
and many more...
Having STML at the moment...
memory over loaded...
so yeah... thx...
take cares...
byes...
FiR...
Woken up at
11:04 PM
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I'M DEAD!!!
GOOD LUCK PEOPLE!!!
Woken up at
4:00 PM
Friday, October 17, 2008
Okays...
Today was the Graduation Ceremony
But firstly,
let us dig the history out...
After my PSLE results was issued, i had only 2 choice of sch to choose from...
tis was because of my condition... and only 2 schools were offering resources
for ppl like me... The 2 choices were Bedok south and Ahmad Ibrahim Sec...
aying in Woodlands, ofcos AISS was the better choice... and at tat time
i heard AISS was one of the good schools...Hence, i made my decision and
chose AISS...St
So i entered with fear and being shy...The fear as i've nvr studied in a normal school before...
afraid of any bullies that will occur...
Me as a person from a special school has no exposer to the
outside world... hence i'm a super shy guy in my early years in AI...Music was my Passion ever since i was inmy Primary school...
My primary school taught me alot on music and in addition,i took piano lessons at the Cristofori music school...My passion for music was build in this area and i pledge tocontinue my passion for music in my secondary school...
After CCA open hse and the TIP, i ofcos decided to put
band as my first choice... i knew tat it wud excel my music
interest...The year kinda smooth by the guidance of teachers and seniors...
I fell in love wif my CCA as i learn to play the Euphonium...I t's the best instrument yet to me... i would like to thankmy seniors and conductor by understanding my condition and
have been patient wif me...
Special thanks to my sec1 form teacher, Mr Soo and Mr Ho.
together wif my subject teacheThe nxt year...I've passed my sec1 and was promoted to sec2...
2N2 rocks... heh...
Well those memories...
there were ups and dwns in tis class...
but we manage to bond and make each other like our family...
At the end of the year, we prepared for our streamings...
the class worked very hard for achievements...
We knew that it wud b very hard...
In this year, i also met my junior who became closer to meyear after year... indeed he's my Best Bro and Best fren
whom i cn nvr replace... i cud remember the day whr i wasat the bus stop alone and saw a sec1 junior sitting by himself...
as i was being alone, i came nearer to him wanting to open a convo...
Befor i cud say anything, he opened his mouth and said,
"abang, abang naik bas ape?" meaning, "Brother, what bus are u taking?"
From then we got to noe each other and drew closer to each other and
became bestfrens... it is a good pleasure to b a fren of his...
Year 3...
After streamings, a number of our classmates were no more to be
the same class... as our subj combinations were different...
some took elective history and some geog...
and a new subj was present... the POA...I tool elective history... well i love history so much from
sec1 and 2... and as the year went by, i love POA...
I found it to be a very easy suvj and score well...
In the year, i aslo participated in the
National Band Competition (NBC)
I also enjoyed the CIP programmes tat was held that year...
The 4th year...
In the 4th year, things was geting harder for my life...
i had meny problems to face be it in school or else where
the studies too were getting harder... and in addition,
we were the only NA class tat year to take N'level...
Many were afraid of it... but we made it somehow...
all thanks to our lovely subj teachers who pushed us
all the way to he best tat we can do....
most importantly to the form teachers Mdm. Koh and Mdm. Loh
for their word of encouragement and guide us trough the dark tunnel.
In tis year too, i found a juniors who's very caring and loving...
i wud like to thank her alot for her company in the nite while
i was burning midnight oil for my N'Level papers.
She is my Meimei...
Even though i had hard times wif so many probs in my life
during my N'level which made me break down many times,
i manage to pull through a i noe that my future is much important...
"sometime u have to me selfish" a person told me....
p.s. : participated in SYF and we manage to get SILVER again... yay...
Well collected my results and was happy with it...
even though i did badly, i still happy as i'm promoted...
Wat a nice munber... 2,2,3,4,4,5
and finally this year...
Sec 5
I could say this year, i started a fresh...
the aim to score for O'level and go to poly...
pushing my probs aside but they jus come back again
I still had to serve band for another year...
i was glad and honoured to do so...
So came in the sec ones.... they were
adorable, playful and so caring... hehe...
I dunnoe y, but i thank God that i cud bond
wif them so much... somehow they jus made
me smile when i'm down... they very loving...
Some put in hard work and some jus slack...well, i wud say, good for the ones who put hard workand those who dun, i wish u wud...Because i'm sure u guys are the best juniors who
cud bring up the band in future one day...
Thank you to those sec1s who cares abt me
and have been a great junior of mine...
Would like to mention some...
Dickson, Junyang, Shaik, Shahirah, Xiao Qi
aiya... many more lah... haha.. thank you so much...
The Band had to join NBC but there weren't
any tubist... i stood there and look
at them how sad it wud b if there was no NBC...
so, despite my preparations, i help the
band by participating wif them...
and we manage to achieve silver...
So currently, i'm still preparing my O'levels
and had went through prelims...
well, tis year, the life in sch wasn't that great
as i felt i was more of bonded to the class the
years b4 and nt nw...
Whatever it is, i'm trying my best to put my
probs aside and concentrate in my O's
Thank you to my subj teachers and the form teacher
who put in alot of effort to teach us the best way so as
we cud understand what they were teaching...
in addition to their busy schedule, they made
time to make extra lesson for my class...
special thanks to Ms. Ng S. C. who
gave me 1 to 1 extra lessons so as that ican cope wif the class due to my condition...
Thank you to all the teachers who gave
me the words of encouragement...i appreciate it alot...
To my Bestfren/bro, Meimei, little bros in sec1
and the other juniors, i thank u alot for ur care
and concern and being there for me whenever i nid u
Haikal, I noe tis is not the last time but, i did reali
thank u alot for being my close fren who understand
me very much... there are many things to say abt u.
but it jus can't turn into words... even though there
was ups and downs, we manage to pull through
and start new... Thank bro...
JingYi Mei, Thank you for loads and loads word
of encouragement and being there for me all the time
wif ur care and concern. Thank you for the company
last year as i've mention above... Stay sweet and
dun give up kay... i'll miss u so much... take cares...
i'll drop by some day...
To the 2 little bros of mine, u guys are adorable... haha..
u wud make me smile wenever i'm down... u try
ur best to make me happy... i thank u for that...
Your care and concern brought warmth to my life...
You guys are the best sec1 juniors i've met...
I'll miss u guys alot...
stay happy and take cares... cya when i drop by...
to all other juniors, thanks for undertanding me,
thanks for everything u've done...
Shahirah, thanks for that dedication, sweet of ya...
Amanda, shejia and yu kai, thanks for writing at the wall...
suria and faz for the lolli and bell? lols...
and Kal, for the day, every day infact.. hah...
Junyang for ur time to come and meet me...
wud miss ya guys loads...
so the ceremony was great...
i cried wen i was like singing the sch song for the last time...
so it went kinda well then took pic on stage wif principal and all...
thank you juniors for ur support by calling me name...hah...
then after we had launch... it was ok lah... hahaha
Mdm. Loh bought Cake!!! sweet rite...
Big one... then we cheered and all...
it was great!!!
yay took pic wif me tcher...
These were the writings...
This is the lolli and the bell? 
So the day ended pretty well and
it was a memorable day...
i'll be taking all the sweet memories i had wif me...
thank you...
DOOD LUCK TO THOSE WHOR ARE TAKING
O LEVEL!!!
bye.. gtg nw...
Woken up at
9:38 PM
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Hello...
Thank God my grandpa has been discharged.
it's been 3days...
Well, science prac has been carried out and heard
it was quite hard... i hope you guys will score.
hmmm... im so stress up by the preparation...
1st paper science chemistry... Omg!!!
Well tmr hav to go sch for briefing for O'levels paper...
And farewell ceremony!!!
gosh hope tmr wud be a good memorable day....
ahahaa... i dun think im ready to leave sch...
i wud miss alot of ppl...
ahaha... ok then no more to say... mayb tmr
i'll post some memorable stuff, me in secondary sch life...
signing off....
FiR...
Woken up at
10:53 PM
Friday, October 10, 2008
Well, like i predicted you guys just won't bother.
Who am i right? so much for you people's
EMPTY WORDS...
Ya so much of most of you...
empty promises, words....
This is what i always get...
and i'm too damn stupid to
fall for it...
It just suck...
No mood to study...
been emo-ing for some reason...
alone suffering which no one seems to care...
My breath is void of oxygen
My heart a scribble without rythm
I don't know what I'm doing
Or what I should have done
I need someone to hold
Instead of only one
I don't want to be alone,
I don't want to be alone,
I don't want to be alone,
The panic sets in
As darkness becomes my comfort zone
This tired soul is stuck here all alone
Wondering what he has done
to turn them all away
The reason for his lonliness
Only he can say
I am alone,
I am alone,
I am alone
His walls are crushing him tonight
A stagnant shallow pool of blood and flesh and tears
Where no one wants to go
Where he swims in all his fears
I don't want to be alone, I am alone, Things will never change.
.....
I'm hurt all the time.
I don't want to cry for the way I feel inside.
I just want someone to hold me...
I'm alone in the dark, please try to find me.
If no one cares, I don't see a point to go on.
Anyone find me! Anyone care!
I'm sorry, I just don't want to be alone anymore.
I feel unheard and unseen. Depressed and weak.
No one cares and yet I'm always the sorry one.
Someone find me! I'm scared.
Please hold me until it all ends.
Just hold me that’s all I want.
I don't want to be alone in the dark.
Just hold me as I start to disappear from the light.
Just hold me as I start to cry.
Just hold me so I wont be alone inside.
Just hold me so I don't do something wrong.
Just hold me so tight, that for a moment I could feel the light....
OuTz...
FiR..
Woken up at
9:25 PM
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Well, life is just a place where i'm always getting
hurt each time i breathe. it might sound so fake,
but when you be in my shoes, you will understand.
I feel so damn useless in this world. Each time
i try to live and survive, i fall...Before i
could rise and stand again, so much pressure and
many people just push me down back again to the
ground. So must as well i fall with impact
and K.O. People will be people, they won't understand
what others are going through... even me. only some do
understands and some try their best to do so...
some succeed, some fail... My life is so complicated that
no one seems to understand. sometimes even i don't too...
I've been insulted, i've been blamed, i'm always the first
to get the attention by the negative points. With my
condition, it's jus so hard and too many obstacles to
go over. i so need a shoulder right now. Whoever
it is that i know and close with. But sad,
i'm ALONE! it's really too bad. even i have
two sisters, i just feel that i don't have any.
I alone and so i'm bored... so whenever i'm with
others, i tent to be BORING!!!... ya, i am and
i hate it. it's no what i wanna be. I
dunnoe if you guys felt that i'm BORING! but i
feel that you guys are think of me this way.
Friends, hmmm... they can be there when you are helping
but will they be there when you are in need?
Friends, they can be so nice to you infront, but
at the back? Only God knows what they say.
Friends, they can just be selfish and nvr give in.
Friends, You may understand them, but they won't make an
effort to do the same thing to you.
Friends, they may just shout at you for nothing but
you gave in and listen. And when it is too
much for you to take, you shout, and he/she
would hate/ignore you for a period of time.
Friends, they might be just lying to you but you
just take it as a fact and believe him/her.
Friends, they can just insult you indirectly at times but
you stayed positive and did not bother much...
Friends, they might just judge you by your appearance.
And finally, i guess this is why they say that
Closest Friends is His/Her Closest Enemy.
All the above stated is base on fact....
let's move on... I failed my Prelims badly!!! see how
stupid i can be? very stupid... then being questioned by
teachers, why like this and that... well what can i say?
I just threw to them my problems and explain why.
Hopefully my O's don't flunk...
Hari Raya was Okay and boring this year...
too lazy to upload photos...
did not collected much...
Been so busy preparing for O's and it's
like so near lor... im dead meet i guess...
i'm so so stress with tonnes of works
plus plus my own problems...
had countless broke down...
i really need a shoulder... pls..
haha...
been busy goin back to school for
class which it was suppose to me
"Home Study"
Must as well ask go school as per normal...
But whatever it is, it helps... Thank God...
Well currently studying till Papers...
And my teachers putting high expectations on me!!!
I'm dead!!! pressured...
To all juniors, good luck for your results...
and have a good rest...
that's all for now...
FiR...
Woken up at
8:46 PM
